Ezio Hidden Blade Mechanism

Last night we saw The Royal Tenenbaums on sky.

I realized not to identify myself more as Margot rather Chas.

Tomorrow, who knows.

Francis had never visited this movie and has not even seen the wonderful world of Amelie.

Francis saw another three million instead of movie I saw not having done more to life than going to the cinema.

To tell the truth especially at university. And until last year.

Even now I go there. Sometimes I fall asleep there. It had never happened before.

One time I left the cinema. The film was about Bob Dylan called I'm Not There.

I got up and I left, then once out I could not believe I did.

That day, I escaped.

with Fabio Once we went to see Arsenal Amarcord.

only that his passport had expired so we were not allowed to enter.

I burst into tears as a s. francesco but it was because my sister (A thousand miles away) had a fever and I was worried. Fabio obviously preceded me a few feet, we walked back home, muttering things like, stop it tomorrow but I'll take the videotape, we came to the movies at home just because it's too cold.

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I read a few pages a night.

Slowly but read everything.

I set this thing, not to abandon my passions.

The music still can not do well to listen, but I try. Little by little. For example

play Heitor Villa Lobos. As we return from Umbria. A surreal sun passes me by the horns. I try not to think about anything. Castle s.stefano to remember when I went to hear the tribute to Heitor Villa Lobos and then got up a Fellini wind swept everything away.

Sun Highway music, the idea is not too confortanete to return home. Sandwiches dell'autogrill, the process dell'autogrill, two Ferraris parked, the juice made from machines, fatigue, hair clean.

groped in hotel rooms to read a few pages a night.

syndrome Shark. The back of the hotel tariff. Sleep alone. Feels like a disc of Russian Giuni where love is only a pretext, a cover, words that are easy to rhyme. While the real truth lies somewhere else. In solutions of the week puzzles.

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Alice Munro

Chiara Gamberale

Thomas Gunzig

Vanity Fair

l'oroscopo della Gazzetta del Mezzogiorno

Donne (magazine) di Repubblica

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Ho fatto il compleanno.

Ora ho due vestiti delle nuove collezioni .

Uno è di simona barbieri e l'altro è di max&co (un po' da orfanella, delizioso).

Quando ho paura mi concentro sull'amletico dubbio circa i mocassini (viola o deep blue? scamosciati o in pelle?). Penso alle mie stuart weitzman nere a punta tonda e tacco alto. Penso all'odore della maschera per capelli secchi. Penso al polso di mia madre che gira la crema nel pentolino sempre nella stessa direzione per renderla densa, penso a keith jarret, alla bellezza.

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Ciò che prima cercavo con ostinazione adesso non ha più importanza.

Così non so più chi sono ed imparo a stare sospesa come tra la vita e una vita diversa.