Non ho mai avuto così disperatamente bisogno di estate.
Piove e fa buio da mesi.
Certi istanti esce il sole, ma poco.
Il sole esce il pomeriggio alle tre dopo che ho appena finito di lottare contro l'ora del lupo.
Torno al lavoro con la bocca piena di gall.
There is the sun coming from the great big windows in the meeting room.
could be a very beautiful house.
Instead it is a place whipped by neon.
No one cares nothing.
I decided to completely stop complaining because I fear for the work of some peaks reaching star of unpleasantness that already poorly tolerated by me, let alone the speakers.
one time it was not.
beginning that I went out with Dusty and he did nothing as long as you tell me what FECAVA to work, labor, labor problems, the future business, I found it deadly boring and when he remembered to ask to me that you did, replied that I was going to make me the color, the nails, that I went to the mall because I was afraid that another two minutes on work, I would have vomited.
worked before. Not so, but it worked before. And I had the time and also the desire to write, to study Rilke, to download music, go dancing at Brancaleone.
In the world there are millions of people with my own responsibilities and that are well - I do not know how it is possible - but also find additional resources to have children, buy a house, go for waxing, browse magazines theme, organize holidays.
So I want to forget it and not follow suit.
E 'a some 'difficult between us, but we want to try.
Well, yes, have a different attitude toward everyday life to find a space where I can do something else that does not have headaches, sleep like an ignoramus, to file the dentist, take care of someone stayed with the car Breakdown, take care of someone, try to find sleep, wait for the effect of Sinflex, organize ideas.
I know that I will find this balance. I have to find. It 'important as eating well, copririsi, smoke less, and so on.
the evening so I always try to read a little bit. I'm reading another novel by Alice Munro. I discovered I have several at home, I had a given that friend of my sister pulmonologist. One evening I went to his house, had prepared the couscous. He was a nice little 'rough, we did not talk much. For a variety of circumstances we exchanged gifts. Now its back to me very valuable as Alice Munro is one of the few things that tolerate at this time.
I approach things with a new caution. I must first see what effect they do.
things that I can get is the music of Malika Ayane and Esperanza Spalding.
If it's four thirty in the morning and I am leaving for the airport to clear and start the nano Franz Ferdinand, I have a heart attack.
if Alitalia continues be so shockingly negligent and I have to wait four hours to Heathrow, I can listen push the button without contraindications, everything. Even when this album was released in February and was preparing to interview the end of first year law practice. When I finished studying at night, I went running along the knife behind my house for the duration of the disc.
airports no longer talk. My neighbor's chair, pulls out a mac note book and starts to do his business. So I discover that the name Alexander, who is the engineer who was born in September which is engaged to a love that calls yet another chat with perhaps Sicilian named Tinkerbell and demand for which you did qt whole week that we have not heard? He tells her he has seen the movie Milk. Then I discovered that also turns to universities, which is a researcher and he can do calculations quite complicated. He wears a pair of brown Pelotas, has many friends on facebook whose pages shows a photo of him in the boat and he wears dark glasses. We have never spoken. I know enough about him so as to have lost interest.
I lose interest in things that I've finally learned origin, size and weight. I became aware of the banality of all things which I think valuable, unique, fortunosissime, things only happened to me a strange magic. Instead, they were a little fortune 'Tarot. We can not do anything with it. It was nice believe otherwise, then I was a bit disappointed but now 'relieved. Also allow me to be joyous mediocre: I make this choice, to balance.
So I find myself at an outdoor bar to be exiled to a place I do not know, to justify doing what we all do.
are all I want to be.
This forces the crisis.
